eyeliner

i was looking into my mirror today and after i got my eyeliner retattoo'd on and it looks like the lady who did the tattoo actually touched up on my lower lids' eyeliner a bit because it shows off more after i got the top lid tattoo'd- which she spent more time doing. then she told me that she'd do the bottom lids' if i ever decide to come back in and she claimed it hurt more i think. i couldn't really tell a difference. i was more afraid of her slipping and blinding me, i kept saying, "DON'T BLIND ME." while she was tattooing my lids and she tried to reassure me by saying, "i've been doing this for six years and i haven't blinded anyone yet." i'm also not sure if the bottom just looks brighter now just because of the top eyelid's tattoos? i DO remember her quickly tattooing the bottom lids though even though she claimed she'd do the bottom lids if and when i come back. i can't really distinguish the difference between it because i don't really remember what it looked like the last time i had them touched up. i just remember crying the very first time i had it done and my grandma took me to get my eyeliner tattoo'd because i thought it was too bright and i looked like a hooker, so i rubbed a lot of it off. i'm trying not to even touch my eyes at all now though. i'm more satisfied with my eyes now compared to my reactions the first time my grandma took me to get my eyelids tattoo'd. maybe this time the lady did a better job or i was just surprised by the difference the first time i had it done, so i'm more aware of any differences now and more accepting?